This is not a post or a past. This is the intrigue present , the gift given to me by the holy lord. Ooh , that sounds like a verse , but believe me being Me, Myself and I makes the racked and ruined curse. Long time back when i watched the movie "12 monkeys" , i loved the dialogue "Mentally divergent ... planet of ogo" and the concept of world getting to an end , but this year seems to be a hard year for me . Started with some official issues , penetrating into my personal life and now giving me such experiences. From past one & half week , my life is on a run with a fact that one of my junior is having a multi-organ Tumor , which is also known as cancer. It started back long back , nearly two years when he had pain in his abdomen and found to have some tumor in liver, problem RCA'ed and customer was given a fix of that with a surgery. But soon thing went ugly and family poured all their money and patience into it from past two years. Then one day i got a call and came to know about this . Initial response from my side were quite low. I was busy with my own official stuff but suddenly one day another junior called me and told that patient's brother wanted to talk me . Talked with him and the night was insomniac. Then from past one and half week, we tried our best to reach out the best doctors of India . With lots of helpful people , everyday we were getting some inputs from various doctors all over india. But each time i talk with patient's brother, life seems to be a bitch. Results of all the consultations were horrifying and we found that there is no solution now . Its already late . But it is difficult to convey to family. We are their only hope and fact is we are hopeless . Searching for light , how can we give light to them? I being bad at giving some false assurances or in worldly terms , bad in consoling , is more hit mentally on this. Yesterday when i had a word with patient' brother yesterday when he was in delhi to consult a cancer specialist(infact the only cancer specialist we consulted so far, who gave us positive response on the first consultation), he was a bit happy that patient had some movement . But today was a dooms day. My phone rang and picked up, he cried and told doctors has told of no hope. I was numb, he was crying and crying. I cut the phone but still his voice is echoing in my head. Such a trauma the family is going through. Father has invested his provident fund, his complete pension and all he has in patient's medications and its not about money like money. Its the psychological impact the family is going through. No one eats anything for days and days, sitting next to him without any sleep. Their eyes are red and blood is not.We know the end is coming but still the thought of it shivers me down. I close my eyes and see them all. I have never seen his family but deep down in my mind i know them all. This is not the end, this is not the beginning .Just a voice like a riot rocking every revision.
I pray to god to do some miracle .
I pray to god to do some miracle .
